A personal project

I wont bog you down with hows and whys for that you can read the information on my other blog which is called Rhiannon’s wish. It is named after my daughter and designed to help people who need it first of all I will be creating bags for children to keep them occupied during the lock down and help them settle into new environment if that is the case. Next stage would be to create bags for adults who have fled their home for any reason be it Domestic abuse, Domestic Violence or Coercive Control or simply they are homeless.

You can find this blog on the following link https://rhiannonswish.wordpress.com it is a new project which I will be focusing a lot of attention as well as money to. I am on benefits right now but I am hoping to come of them soon enough the DWP (Department for work and pensions) Decided I am not fit enough for proper work but this does not mean I can not help others even if I only get 220.00 every two weeks and left with little by the time my bills are paid and my debts as well as food is brought. Helping others gives me a good feeling in a way it makes me happy to helps me be that little more positive about myself especially in my darker days.

I am currently seen as being extremely vulnerable to this Covid-19 pneumonia virus that is killing thousands around the world on a daily basis. My deepest sympathies go out to every single person who has lost someone due to it. Whilst my deepest gratitude goes out to everyone working on the front line trying to keep us safe. I have heard some people saying nasty things about our prime minister here in the UK and the president in the USA. Sure they might have acted late but until the world health organisation declared it a global pandemic there wasn’t much they could do. In fact the simple fact that they didn’t know what it was meant they didn’t know how to fight it and didn’t know what steps to put in place to slow the spread of it. Another good point to point out is that some people don’t even show symptoms therefore dont know they have the virus but are spreading it.

I personally in my 40 years have never heard of a virus that does not show symptoms in every one who has said virus. But this one some do not show the symptoms such as Idris Elba (English actor). While I am shielding I decided to try and help as much as I can there is a charity called The Betty Ennis Foundation which is feeding a vast amount of people in Coventry, United Kingdom. Who I donate to on a regular basis as well as donating food to the food bank but I wanted to go a step further so I’ve set up the Rhiannon’s Wish.

As well as this I will be focusing on my books and completing them ready to be sent to an editor. Once published 50% of my profits would go to Rhiannon’s wish while the rest would be used for my other books and daily essential items.

Thank you for reading.

First draft short story

As they drove down the streets Wyatt noticed the shop door ways seemed to be full of teens and adults with no where better to go. Unlike him children who had no where to live he could not help but to shake his head and look over to his brother.

”it’s a shame that happens and everyone ignores them, one boy stated its like they are invisible. Is it just me or is that wrong? Aren’t we all born equal?” I asked and looked to my brother then over to the driver.

”If I may young Wyatt, but people believe that these people have done something to deserve this. If you like they think that the unfortunate ones have brought it on themselves even though sometimes things at home can be bad almost like a living nightmare and they run especially young children.” The driver looked in the rear view mirror as he talked to the little

“Yes or they are too wrapped up in what they are going through in their lives, well its either that or thy don’t care. There’s thousands of children like you out there part of the lost children.” Dylan replied in a way he agree with what the chauffeur had said but would find out all the figures when he had chance. As he saw his brother shake his head at the teens and adults tucked into door ways and police move someone on from where they was.

”mum says its wrong to ignore someone on the streets, as redemption is open to everyone and you never know when you will need help yourself right?” Wyatt asked and looked to his brother with a smile “See bro I do listen at times.”

”you know what mother’s right as always bro, we should try and help but that’s why me and Matt offer a free legal help when we can.” Dc noticed the restaurant in the distance and started to get ready aware rebel would be meeting them outside Rossini “Think about it where would Arlo Rossini be if we did not find him and help him?” Dc asked.

Please abide by the rules. (COVID-19)

Hello every one on my list

Well there’s no point explaining to you who I am you already know who I am and whats happened to me over the years. You may have read some of my work in the past or on my page and many of you I met through writing and when I was running the promotion page on here for books. Sure my grammar isn’t very good on this but I am trying to write what I think you should know in this open letter. First I want to say thank you to Pam and Charlotte as well as David and Paul who have all helped me over the past few weeks.

Any way I wanted to say a big THANK YOU and explain that I felt I needed to write this so every one has a good understanding on things. Yes I do like the odd conspiracy theory but I do not believe that this virus is a false flag operation or an effect of 5G masts. Sure some conspiracy theories over the years have mentioned things like cancer being caused by phone masts and smart meters which from what I know is possible. As many have said over the past few weeks in different groups and the fact 5G masts are being burned down is stupid. I know that with any new tech there’s always been the theories they will do harm, I remember reading in the NEXUS magazine many years ago about the ill effects of phone masts and smart meters. Personally I will keep my theories between me and my best friend who dare I say it is sceptical of my ideology. (prime example of misunderstanding about tech is the industrial revolution and how we reacted back then).

Another thing I want everyone on my list to know is yes I am ill I have COPD/Asthma and have to take daily inhalers at a very high dose and need to keep steroids in and antibiotics, antidepressants. Not that I want to be stuck inside all day every day now the nights are longer and the nice weather is here I find that I want to go for a walk and was doing that before the virus hit. I was also attending Pulmonary Rehabilitation at the Atrium and enjoying it a lot learning to work out safely building up my muscle strength and having a laugh with the team. Sure the physiotherapist can be a slave driver but I liked that and the fact she wasn’t scared to tell me off. I miss the voluntary work I was doing at CIAS and the people there..

I might have conditions that make me weaker in some ways but I am certainly not stupid or lazy like some people in Willenhall have said. Not to long ago I set up a walking group sure it didn’t take off but I made my first friends through it so will never forget that people like John have moved on but he showed me when we bumped into each other he is happy to stop and say hello. That was a good feeling to know some one would stop and talk to me in the streets.

I know I am supposed to be in 100 percent isolation for three months not seeing any ones face and not going out at all. But the truth is that’s very hard to do, we all crave and need human company even if it is a quick hello or a small conversation it helps our mental well being as well. But I have the choice I can either go out and really risk coming into contact with an idiot who has gone out and picked up the virus who then passes it to me so I end up in ICU. Or I abide by the rules put to me, so I have opted to abide to the rules and stay in lucky for me asda has made contact and I am priority for delivery. Which makes my life right now a little easier than it was before and I don’t need to ask people to do my shopping for me.

What I want to say to every one is stick to the rules, I know it feels like your in some sort of prison or you have been grounded.. I can even understand how the way some of the police are acting feels like we live in more of a police state trust me I know how many feel. But we have to stick together and help each other out, what if you go out and catch the virus but don’t show symptoms and you pass it to a loved one or your child? What happens then the youngest victim of this dreadful virus is five years old I am a parent myself and cant even begin to understand how the parents feel right now. This virus is very strange given the fact many might not display the signs I know Idris Elba is one of those who have it but not displaying symptoms of it..

I am stuck in a little flat, with my daughter miles from me along with my family and until recently had little to no contact with her. Yesterday she downloaded skype so I can see her and talk to her which helps to lift my mood given the fact I should be having her right now. I even saw my mom and step dad so that was good it helps a lot and keeps me going in one way. Even a quick inbox helps and keeping in my head this will blow over one day and I will be out walking about if not this summer but next.

Please just remember this has already killed thousands of people world wide, some might have to work with in situations/environments where they are more prone to getting the infection. Thank you to all the key workers, thank you to all the doctors, nurses, pharmacists, shop workers, every single volunteer and food banks, police who are trying to keep everyone safe. Just think is what you want to do worth the risk? Do you have any one at home who has or had cancer their immunity to any virus is weak please don’t risk it, Do you have any one who is old? Again this virus as with the flu could be deadly. Do you have relatives who have transplanted organs hence on immune-suppressants which knock out the immunity? This virus like all other virus’s can kill them. Is there any one with severe respiratory conditions? Again it can kill them!!

I do understand to many this feels like some sort of dystopian society, but the governments have assured us it would be over eventually. It can get worse if people do not tow the line and behave they can ban exercise that people are allowed and confine you all to your flat. That is something I wouldn’t like for any one trust me being stuck in is not a pleasant experience especially when you’re on your own.

Why would you risk the lives of your family and friends for a bbq or a party? If you have children you are risking them for what reason? A five year old died due to it with no under lying health conditions, a 16 year old has died due to covid-19 again she was healthy. Who knows it could be your child or mom/ dad, aunt uncle, brother sister, or you I understand you want fun you want to enjoy your youth or the nice weather but is the risk worth it? But be wise about it if you come down with it and get rushed into hospital they might not be the ventilators required to help you breath, the doctors might have to turn you away not because they want to but there’s no other option. Hospitals world wide are fully booked up to the max and beyond. Every one the council and emergency services are working full pelt to keep us safe. Every parent wants to be their child’s hero well this is your chance to be just that by showing them how to act in a crisis like this.

Rest in Peace Aimee a hero, a nurse who contracted COVID-19 while she was working trying to save someones life. She will never be forgotten by any of her school friends and work colleagues . Please to all on my list stay in and stay safe.

Thank you to all the key workers for everything you do.

The time is always right to do what is right!!!!

God bless you all.

E

My life turned upside down.

The days grew long with in the perpetual darkness,

Which engulfed my world everyday we all seem,

To suffer from the depressions this world brings,

Neglecting to see the better times the light from the shadows.

My life turned upside down within an instant,

Just like a flip of a light switch with in an second,

Everything goes dark but I need to look for the flash,

A single flash of light from the most distant source.

Although hesitant I need to remember not everything,

Is friendly within this world but the light is warm,

It seems to soothe and put me at my ease as I relax,

Within the confines of my cell a born fighter ready to fight.

Happy new year

Happy new year

Let’s hope this year is bigger and better than 2019 was.

 

I know what I’m planning to do and thats.

 

1 Create more content from poems, stories, reviews of books, music, films, restaurant’s.

2 I will be focusing more on my writing.

3 I plan on finishing more openlearn courses in various subjects

4 I plan on attending more self development courses.

5 plan on advertising my merchandise (teeshirts, hoodies, sweatshirts, mugs, posters, tapestries, pens, caps)

6 identify how to promote my content (as currently there’s no promotion of my blogs. Esp as wordpress has decided I can’t upgrade this site .)

7 To help others and return to the advisory services, help the homeless, volunteer at the hospital, volunteer at food bank. (According to DWP I’m not well enough to work due to COPD and asthma. So will repay society back in a different way.)

8. NOT ALLOW MY ILLNESS TO BEAT ME (by finding things I can do to help me)

9 Release my poetry and story books (with plan of creating my own  shop)

10 Donate a range of books to charity (esp children’s charities)

11 donate money to several charities of my choice.  (Mind, Samaritans, foods bank etc.)

12 going to London for a meeting.

 

 

Too those who tell me get a proper job . Even though I have good references  and qualifications I’m chronically ill. Out of 150 job applications I sent out I got interview requests from 9. So looks like my only way to work is through setting up my business.

A personal blog

I grew up comparing my family to another. My area of town to another.  I was considered to live in the golden posh end of town and the other end was the rough end.

When deep down I didn’t care that my friends in the rough end was worse off. Didn’t have computers or TV in their rooms, no firmal rules for dinner times or routines.

In fact looking back on it they had things I didn’t, rules more relaxed but family who didn’t rey on belts or slippers  for punishment still we became friends. Sure it was frowned on by where ok lived but I didn’t care. Because we’re all human.

Since my childhood I’ve learnt many lessons the hardest way  i could. Now I have nothing no longer talking to the same friends.

I would always bend over backwards to make sure someone was ok. After all I was brought up in single parent family from the age of three till 11. Where I was taught by church and nan to help those in need, and stand up to let .An old person who needed a chair on the bus or crossing the road. Now I’m I’ll possibly no chance of work . But I can still help charities.

 

2020 won’t be any difference I’ve selected this year to be the make or break year for me

 

Boxing day

Traditionally in England they celebrate boxing day which is on the 26th December.

A time where servants were permitted to celebrate often having time off work.

As they worked Christmas day keeping the house and their masters fed.

They would celebrate the birth of Christ and be handed presents often in boxes by their employers.

Another traditional matter is fox hunting with hounds but this is banned now but the hunt remains.

Perhaps it was a time the poor box was opened in church and given to the poor.

But what ever the history today it’s a time to eat the left over food and drink.

 

I hope where ever you are that you’ll enjoy your time today. I know if I’m well enough I will be giving food and drink to the homeless.

 

 

They are human too

A storm is blowing outside today,

I can’t help think of those worse affected

The men and women on the streets

Where I once slept.

 

I wish I could be out helping them

Letting them know some of us still care and fight their corner but illness.

Keeps me in bed lucky to be home

Due to flare up of COPD asthma

But still I can’t stop thinking of

The people on the streets less fortunate than myself.

 

Please don’t walk past and do nothing

Please say hello as it could save a life

Wish them merry Christmas offer them a drink and food.

Just like I do even though I live on limited means.

Remember they are human to.

Happy Christmas

 

 

As I eagerly await the excitement I know my child has
as they wait for the visit from Santa trying to sleep
with one eye open trying to trick the ancient gift bearer
with stories of Krampus in their mind as I warn them
every year to be good all year long or Krampus would surely
take in his sack with other naughty girls and boys.

 

Happy Christmas to everyone , I hope all your wishes come true
I wish you all the best for Christmas festivities and year to come
Let’s hope that 2020 will be a better year than 2019 has been 
and may it be the best of years both in business and personal life
Enjoy yourselves but stay safe nd remember to show each other respect.